Friday, May 31, 2013


I have been trying to figure out why it is that I am not fitting in at my place of employment, even though I have gone out of my way to be nice and try and fit in as best as I can and I now know why. It is because it is high school all over again. For those of  you who do not know this, I was never popular. I was always a loner and I was just never good at making friends. Apparently I thought outside of the box and that is frowned upon.

Now, once again, I am the much talked about weird kid who is gossiped about and picked on. Walking into a place where everyone hates you is kind of upsetting and it does hurt my feelings, but hey, my family tells me that is what people do in the real world. They suck it up. A few months ago it was just my one co-worker that hated me and now it seems everyone at work hates me too and has joined her to destroy me or something.

Is there not a point in your life where the whole high school mentality stops and everyone starts thinking for themselves? Are there actually people who still care about who is cool and who is not? Are there actually still people that only wants to be friends with the cool kids? If there are, I can't even begin to understand that kind of mentality. I have never been the kind of person to have other people think for me or force me into things. I never wanted to be one of the cool kids and for some reason, that just makes me even more hated at work, which is my high school experience all over again.

Not quite myself

I have no idea why, but I have not been feeling like myself. Even being in my own skin feels alien.  The good news is that I still managed t...