Not quite myself

I have no idea why, but I have not been feeling like myself. Even being in my own skin feels alien. 

The good news is that I still managed to pitch up here instead of going back in my shell. 

I haven't written any fiction yet. But I am doing a psychology Diploma course right now. It is about Jung, and I absolutely love it. I am learning so much about myself, and about concepts that might sound unfamiliar, but are right up my alley. Thoughts and ideas that I have always had, but didn't know there were actual terms for them. Or that they were real. That it wasn't just me who thought about certain things a certain way.

Jung was a great believer in studying myths and folklore of cultures to understand people, and the psychology of individuals. Each community, or country has their own folklore and myths. This course feels like it belongs in my world. Just like writing does. Both play a vital roll in my true self. 

I am not quite myself. But I am happy I could write this post. Because last year I did one post and this year I have at least two. 

Keep well

Getting back to being a writer

Never in a million years would I have guessed that I would be here again. That I would have stopped writing again. That I would become an inflexible salary person. But that is exactly who I am.

Working in the hospitality industry for the past few years has taken every ounce of physical, creative, and mental strength out of me. I had to… I needed it, and still need it to survive in that environment.

I merely told myself that I was taking a break. Recharging my creative well. I had done that. I am still doing that, but still, other than this post, not much else has been written.

Now I have to fight my way back to creativity and my writing, or give up. The latter is not an option.

I think the fear of knowing how hard the road had been before…It terrifies me. Knowing how far away I have drifted from this life.

I have never been much of a quitter. So my fight to make it back to my true self, writer self, has begun once more. I am truly terrified. But what do I have to lose, right?