My Dearest Friends. Thank
you so much for your encouragement and support. With regards to my writing and
blogging I’ve been feeling on top of the world. Every one of you made me feel
accepted and heard. Thank you. This community is so important to me and my
sanity.
I’ve spent the last week
caught up on all things Harry Potter. I’m reading The Goblet of Fire, and I
really appreciate and admire J.K. Rowling’s imagination and her easy to read
writing style. It definitely makes it easy to escape to Hogwarts and get caught
up in all the happenings. Sometimes that’s just what I need. It definitely
makes me want to get back into my own fantasy world of Thelum, which I had
created a few years ago. I am definitely in the state where I’m just absorbing
all sources of inspiration. Doing that makes me feel good and inspired. Having
others around you that inspire you is crucial to the creative process I think,
and absolutely feel.
Music to dance to
My personal life is a mess,
but I’m working through that. The fact that I’m fighting my way back to my
writing makes life a lot more tolerable. I have missed it so much. I missed how
it nourished my soul and made me feel alive, and it made me feel like perhaps everything wasn’t
going to hell. These days I’m learning something new about myself all the time.
It is so strange, but it definitely gives me more to write about. Music was
always a way to replenish my writing well when it ran dry. These days I can
listen to music and it makes me feel . . . period. Depression tends to make you
feel isolated. For me it absolutely drained enjoyment and life out of
everything. I’ve been so used to not feeling, that these days, when a catchy
tune comes on, I can actually dance to it. One thing my therapist made me aware
of is that happiness is not the opposite of being depressed. Living is the
opposite of depression. So, live. Show your doubts, anxiety, and those nasty
feelings that want to drag you down into the darkness, that it won’t steal your
love of life. It won’t make you dead, or numb on the inside.
If there is anyone dealing
with depression, or with feelings of not being enough, know that it might not
seem like it, but there are ways to feel okay within yourself, and eventually you will feel okay. Life might not
be okay, but you . . . your inner self, can become okay. It is possible.
Can I ask, what inspires
you? What are other great ways to fill your creative well when it’s empty?