Monday, May 12, 2014

When things go right

Today is a great day for me. Why? Because today I woke up knowing exactly what I want to do with the rest of my life. I have been feeling really lost since I quit my awful job last year and having been unemployed for almost a year. But now, for the first time in my life I have the opportunity to have a say in my employment status. How you ask? Because I am going to be my own boss. I have committed myself to becoming a self-published writer.

I know what most of you think "You can't make a living off that when you are starting out and an unknown writer." Well, I am currently broke and sponging off my family, so when I'm self-published at least I will be doing something that I have been wanting to do for the last 7 years. Yep, that is how long I have been working on this book. I will be doing a job I love and would find stimulating.

For a long time I have been in denial of this fact, but I am a creative person with a creative personality. I want to wake up each morning knowing that I am living my life the way I want to live it and doing the things I love. For me life is too short and after that horrid job from last year, I couldn't see or imagine myself going back to any kind of job I was not passionate about.

Right now I am still helping out my brother and I have even been flexing my entrepreneurial muscles by offering to take over my family members' chores for a fee. Hey, I have to make money some way. Every penny I am making I am putting towards my potential book expenses like a cover, formatting, etc. Unfortunately I cannot afford professional editing, no matter how much I save. I will ask a few people to read my MS and get their input and try and make the manuscript as perfect as I can. I know many of you don't approve, but this is the best I can do at this point.

The best thing about working for my brother and doing chores is that I get to have lots of revising and editing time. This weekend I got a lot of editing done, which left me sporting a stupid grin all weekend. And yes, we might be adults, but my mom still makes us do chores. It keeps us humble.

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