Sunday, April 6, 2014

Not everyday is the same

There is a very good reason for why I have not been writing or blogging lately. I would love to say that the reason is because of work obligations, but in truth, it has been because of health reasons. Because my blog is all about the truth of my journey towards publication and what my life as a writer is like, I feel I have to share my true reason for my absence.

I have been suffering from depression and am now using medication to help my brain chemicals get back into balance. My depression has not been caused because of a specific event, but is rather the result of many factors beyond my control. This is also not the first time that I have been diagnosed with this condition. I have also been having stomach problems and have been diagnosed with a faulty stomach valve, meaning that stomach acid pushes back up my esophagus, causing the worst heartburn imaginable and this terrible sensation and taste at the back of my throat.

It is not serious at this point and I am receiving medication for it as well, which is supposed to help with the acid reflux. One side effect is that I get hungry every few hours and I need to eat as soon as possible, or my acid pushes back up. I have found that protein lasts longer and that soy irritates my stomach, so most vegetarian options are out the window, aside for beans and I have temporarily gone back to eating chicken and fish. I feel really guilty about it, considering that I have been a vegetarian for about 3 ½ years. Hopefully when my stomach feels better, I can go back to being a vegetarian.

I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me. Instead I want people to see that obstacles come on everyone’s path. The kind of obstacles differs from person to person, but they affect all people from all walks of life alike. To most people my problems can seem trivial compared to what they are going through, after all, the worst day for me right now is debating whether to get out of bed or not, or worrying about what I am going to eat, when.

I hope all is well with you. Please tell me what is going on with you.

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