Wednesday, June 30, 2010

CAN'T WAIT TO SEE ECLIPSE

Sorry I didn't post anything yesterday, we hit our Internet cap for the month. But I am back today. I can't wait to watch Eclipse tomorrow. We have booked our seats and hopefully there won't be any problems like last time. With new moon the video rail broke every few minutes, which was very disturbing.

I am really excited to see this movie and it also happens to be my favorite book in the twilight series. I read on the Internet lately that Stephenie Meyer's twilight series is based on some of the greatest loves stories in history apparently. Twilight = Pride and prejudice, New moon = Romeo and Juliet and Eclipse = Wuthering heights. Don't blame me, I didn't make the comparison and personally I didn't like any of the original books, especially Wuthering heights, though the authors were very talented, I'm sorry.

I am especially looking forward to the bickering between Edward and Jacob. I personally like both characters so, I sympathize with Bella. Either of those two guys can come visit me anytime. Ha! Ha! Ha!

I know I am being very creepy. Anyway, I will write a post on Friday saying what I thought of the movie.

Monday, June 28, 2010

STAYING MOTIVATED WHEN WRITING

Every writer has a different approach to staying motivated. Some prefer to take workshops or even interacting with their fellow writers to keep them in the mood to write, sharp and up to date with what is going on. Others have routines and schedules and very few just never run out of the necessary drive.

I fall under the category of writers who have routines and schedules that keep me on the straight and narrow. Of course I have an endless supply of ideas and things in my head, but sometimes you are having an off day or an off week and you don't necessarily feel like writing.

So, with that said, what can you do to keep you motivated to finish that manuscript? Honestly? That will depend on yourself. Each writer is different because every one's personality is different. But there are a few basic things you can do in my opinion:


  • You have to keep writing. If necessary, work out a writing schedule or pick a certain time of day you feel most inspired at. But you can't stop.

  • Don't forget to eat. I know this sounds weird, but I have recently experimented with this and eating regularly helps your mood and thinking a lot better then if you skip meals. Besides, you pick up weight when you skip meals.

  • Find your own sources of inspiration. I get my favourite Cd's and listen to them when I write. Nothing like a little Linkin Park to keep you hyped up.

  • Get yourself a designated writing area. So, when you go there, you know that this is manuscript writing time. I carry a notebook with me everywhere to write my ideas in, but when I get in front of my computer, I know it is manuscript writing time.

  • Love what you do. This might sound basic, but write stories you love. As soon as you start doing what everyone else is doing, instead of doing what you love, you are doomed. I love each and everyone of my characters. I love bringing them to life and not doing that infuriates me. So, when I don't write I am a real Meany.

  • If you feel overwhelmed and need to take a break, do so. Sometimes you need to get away to get a better perspective of things.

  • Prioritise. You can still have a life, but what you need is balance. I am not a very social person, so I don't mind writing a lot. But most people are very social and they get upset if they are stuck in front of the computer for hours. So, go out and have fun, but don't forget to do some writing too.


I think that is it. Like I said before, this is what I think. You might have other ways to keep yourself motivated. But no two people are a like therefore, no two writers are a like either. You might have similar writing style as someone else, but the way how you get to the end results will differ. So what works for J.K. Rowling, might not work for you. Find what gives you that extra kick when you need it. Nothing illegal please!

Writing is very personal and it is very hard work. There is no way around the hard work, sorry. You have to put in the time to get the results you want.

Hope I was a little helpful, if not, sorry and good-luck.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

BEING THE YOUNGEST IN THE FAMILY SUCKS

It sucks being the youngest of four children in my family. I am constantly the one in the middle of the sibling rivalry. Because they always say ''your the youngest you must do this'' or ''your the youngest so you must do that''. So, in the end I am the one taking all the crap.

I am also the only one who does not have a successful career, the one who is unemployed and the one with the awkward personality. Now I can even add aspiring writer to the list, which makes them joke and laugh all the time. I told my family I have a blog and only one member of the family (my oldest sister) told me that she was proud of me for trying my best at succeeding at my writing career. That she liked my blog and she thought it was a good idea. The other members of the family rolled their eyes and said ''what a stupid idea'' and ''as long as you don't mention me''.

They even laughed when I told them that I don't have anyone reading, following or even leaving comments on my blog yet. Ha! Ha! Ha! That sure gives you a good kick to the ego.

But I love writing and it is my escape away from the world. I am just sorry that the world who is so big, doesn't have space for a weirdo like me.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

MY BLOG IS NO LONGER A SECRET

My blog is no longer a secret from my family. My one sister caught me blogging a few nights ago and naturally, she couldn't keep it to herself, so she told the rest of the family.

I don't mind, I feel kind of relieved that they all know now. Maybe now they can see that I am truly serious about my writing. Why didn't I tell them before? Because my brother advised me not too and my family are not comfortable with the idea of me writing publicly. So I kept it a secret as much for them as for me.

But my one sister thinks it is good for me and the verdict is still out on the rest.

Friday, June 25, 2010

EYE TEST RESULTS

My eye test went well. I did get my prescription changed, but this time it was for my right eye. I asked to keep my own frame, so that is rather good. I still only have a pair of glasses just for reading, so I am still smiling. I am without glasses for a few days so bear with me if there are huge spelling errors or something.

How Long is a Book?: Determining the Right Word Count for your Novel

How Long is a Book?: Determining the Right Word Count for your Novel

I was doing some research for myself and I thought I might share this helpful article with you. Enjoy!

I hate rude people

I hate rude people. I don't care what their reason is or whether there is a valid excuse in there somewhere, I just don't like rude people.

There is the latest theory that people are only rude to me, because they perceive my overall mannerisms as rude. I honestly don't even understand that. How can it always be my fault? See, that is why I avoid people.

I am really upset now. People disrespecting me, because they have issues with my other siblings or even finding fault with me as a person? Not fair. I tolerate creepy people that cuss like sailors and they are giving me attitude? Stuff like this just p#ss#s me off!


Thursday, June 24, 2010

NO LONGER A TEAM PITBULL MEMBER

Hey, just letting you know I am no longer a member on team pit bull. I have removed my profile. I still support the fighter, I am just not a member of his website any longer.

But you can still check out his website if there are people who are interested.

ANGRY WITH MYSELF

I am so pissed off with myself. I was recently asked, how long I have been writing, and my first response, was 14 years (I have been writing since I was 10 years old). But, I forgot about the 4 years I took off, to try and become a serious person (what a bust).

I should never have stopped. In fact I sort of didn't. I didn't write down any artistic ideas, but I wrote down how I felt and the kinds of emotions I was feeling at the time. No, I guess that doesn't count.

During college, I also got rid of everything I ever wrote. Poetry, short stories and lyrics. I threw them away as I sign of me, becoming mature. I can kick myself for that stupid move! I guess there's no point living in regret. All I can do now, is start over.

I just hope that one day when I am a famous writer (wink, wink) that some of that old work won't turn up and people will try and make money off them. By saying ''Hey, this is Murees, Dupé's work. You can buy it from us for $...'' I like dreaming. It keeps me smiling.

WISH ME LUCK

Wish me luck. I have an apointment with the optomitrist tomorrow morning. Here's hoping I don't get those big spectacles with the heavy glass and weird frame.

I must say, I am rather scared.

DOUBTING MY TALENT

Wow! Is all I can say. I just read some of the writing by some of the writers at writers digest community and I feel really mediocre. I am starting to doubt if I have any talent at all. I thought that my poetry was passionate and realistic, but then I read a poem by a thirteen year old girl and I started feeling really small and insignificant.

Not to mention the ridiculously articulate responses some writers give to the open discussion. If their casual writing is that good, well how great must their work be?

I still think joining other writers in a forum like this is good, but I won't post any of my stuff. I already have a problem with self-esteem. I don't think I can handle criticism about my amateur writing right now.

I haven't really slept in three days. I toss and turn every night, not to mention that I have been having really bad nightmares, too.

I think of my writing as simple, but good. I love that Stephenie Meyer is a fantastic storyteller. And like her, I tried to focus on the story, instead of making my writing so complicated, that not even I could understand it. Her writing was the inspiration I needed to get back to my own writing, after all, So Thank you Stephenie Meyer!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I MIGHT HAVE MADE A FEW ENEMIES

I have only been at writersdigest community a day and I think I might already have made a few enemies. There was a discussion going on about certain writers not liking Stephenie Meyer or saying that she didn't have any writing talent and I just thought that I would give my opinion.

So basically what I said was this:

''I rather enjoyed her books. Sorry...but I did. And i actually like her writing style. She is a very good story teller and personally I just sympathize with Bella, because I am a loner who unlike her, never found where I fit in. And in real life there is no Edward or Jacob. But I still liked the books though. I don't mind that she made her vampires different. As a writer that is what you have to do. There should be no similarities between your work and that of another writer, ever.''

I don't think a lot of people are going to like me for what I had said. But I had to say it

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

SOLUTION TO MY PROBLEM

I am so grateful to all the wonderful people at the writersdigest community who had helped me find a solution for my manuscript problem. Basically, everyone told me to get my manuscript back and edit it myself. They said that it should not matter how many drafts I do,I should still do it myself.

I rather agree with their expert opinions. At least that way, you are still in control of your own destiny. I still love my friend to death, but nobody else can give my manuscript the love that it really needs, but me.

Thank You Writersdigest Community!

Join the writersdigest community

HI

I just joined the writersdigest community page and it is great. You get to interact with other writers, add discussions and even blog. It is great for aspiring and professional writers a like.

http://community.writersdigest.com/?p_PageAlias=Community

So, feel free to check it out or even come and join me.

Aspiring Writers: Do Not Sell Your Soul for Publication

Aspiring Writers: Do Not Sell Your Soul for Publication http://www.stacy-deanne.net/

This is a cool article and it is very helpful, not to mention inspiring.

Monday, June 21, 2010

IS SELF-EDITING A GOOD IDEA?

Should I self- edit my own manuscript? I did consider a professional editor, but I don't have R20 000 for that.

I did some research on the Internet, but I didn't get the answers I was looking for. I just don't know if I am objective enough to pick up any writing mistakes. I can check for grammar and spelling errors, but what about the technical stuff? I read an article where the writer said that if there are any mistakes in your novel, it will get rejected immediately. If you want your work published or if you want an agent to take you seriously, your manuscript has to be polished and in pristine condition.

IN NEED OF AN EYE TEST

I have been struggling with headaches for a while now and I think I need an eye test. It has been almost 3 years since I had last been to one. But I am afraid that this time, seeing that I am reading so much and sitting in front of the computer more and more, that they will change my current prescription drastically.

The last time I was there, they tweaked my prescription and my left eyes prescription was 20 x stronger then that of my right eye. So, what if they give me one of those pare of glasses that look as if they were made of old glass coke bottles? I am already a loser. I can't start looking like one. And maybe I'm going to get braises too.

Imagine what I am going to look like. Isn't it enough that I am weird? Man, Karma hates me.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

SAD

I feel sad and I don't have a real reason why. I haven't felt like this in a while. But I was really happy this morning and now I feel almost depressed.

My writing is going well. And right now, feeling the way I do I can't focus enough to write. I am afraid my characters might just end up killing each other or something.

What ever is wrong with me now, I just hope it passes soon, because I am in a very important place in my book.

CONFLICTED

Emotionally, I am in a weird place today. My neighbors dog keeps coming to me for food. Naturally I feed her, but now every time she sees me, she wants me to play with her or feed her.

I love animals. I think they understand me a lot better then humans do. But I tend to love them the way I would love a real best friend. And in reality, I am still upset about my dog that had passed away a month ago. So, every time I see this dog, I feel sorry for her and give into her demands, only to be close to tears, knowing that I missed my dog.

I don't know what the story is with my neighbors. If they don't feed the dog or what, but she is forever at our house. Even my sister's dog tolerates this newcomer. I will feed her. I don't mind that, but I just don't like the emotional bond she is trying to force on me.

I wanted to call the SPCA, but my brother said, that they will just put her out. He said he will have a talk with the neighbors about their dog, but I know they will not do anything about the situation.

Don't you just hate it when people want animals but just refuse to take full responsibility for them? I do! I hate it! People can talk for themselves, they can even tell you when they are hungry or cold. But animals can't. That's why we have to take care of them. I know what I am talking about. After all, I use to be a animal scientist before I became an unemployed dreamer.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

COLD

It is absolutely freezing today. No matter what I do or regardless of how much clothes I put on, I just stay cold.

My fingers are numb with the cold. I could barely type today. One bad thing about living in a valley surrounded with mountains, is the extreme temperatures that come with it. In the summer it is boiling hot and in the winter it is freezing. It doesn't snow in my town itself, but thanks to the snow on the surrounding mountains, it feels as if though the snow is right outside my window.


Friday, June 18, 2010

I HATE DAYS LIKE THESE

It is days like these, that make me regret that I am the youngest and that I am blessed with a big family. I love my family, don't get me wrong, but being the baby in the family, stinks.

Today I was very busy with cleaning the house, shopping with my mom for groceries and now, we have to reorganize our bathroom cupboard. Because my mom got rid of the old one this morning and we have to put in a new one. I don't mind helping her, but then the other siblings come and order me around too. And I can't be mad at them either, because they are supporting me till I get another job.

All in all, I can't be unhappy about anything they ask me to do, but I am. Like they say: '' life's tough, deal with it''.

I don't think with everything that is going on, that I will get to do much writing today. Which is another bummer, because I have so many great ideas that I just can't put down. My family says that they will start taking my writing ambitions seriously, as soon as I get my first novel published, which I think is unreasonable. But, what can I do?

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Writer’s Digest - 7 Reasons Inspiration Matters to Writers

Writer’s Digest - 7 Reasons Inspiration Matters to Writers

Writer’s Digest - 8 Basic Writing Blunders

Writer’s Digest - 8 Basic Writing Blunders

NAUGHTY DAY

I am like so many woman, who constantly try their best to watch their weight and eat right. I however, don't do it to for the same reasons so many woman do it. I do it because I want to change, for me. It is a personal choice.

But today, I had a very naughty day. I started my day off normal, with a bowl of cheerios and milk and I even danced for half an hour. When lunch time came, I couldn't help myself. I ate three of my moms homemade cup cakes with chocolate icing. Yum! Yum! I am going to need some more exercise and tonight we are having homemade lasagna. Yummee!

My writing is coming along nicely. At the moment I am writing a lot. Everyday, I have a new idea for a new chapter. So, there is luckily not a shortage of creativity. On the contrary. I would say I have too many ideas for my single mind to process. I am still suffering from insomnia, but the happiness I feel, when I write, is well worth the lack of sleep.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

FIRST TWO GREY HAIRS!

Ah! No! I just got my first two grey hairs. I am really upset about that. Although it was inevitable, my mom and dad both being prematurely grey. But to have grey hair at 24? Come on!

My Genetics suck! Really it does. Seeing that I am the youngest of four kids, it appears I got all the left over bad DNA. My family always tells me that I'm the weirdo in the family. Honestly, if I am always different and nothing remotely like my other siblings or other humans as they say. Why couldn't I be the one who didn't get the prematurely grey gene?

I know, I am a drama queen, but I am an aspiring writer after all. Drama is part of the job.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

The Twilight Saga Eclipse Official Full Trailer (HD)



Awesome!

CAN'T WAIT TILL ECLIPSE COMES OUT!

I just saw a trailer for the movie Eclipse and I can't wait till the 30th of June, when it comes out. Eclipse, just so happens to be my favourite book of the four.

Why choose between Edward and Jake? Personally, I would have said, Jacob can come visit me during the day, seeing that Edward has a problem coming out when the sun shines and Edward can visit during the night, when Jacob patrols the woods. Perfect!

I am just joking. I was just being a little naughty. I am all for the moral and ethical decisions. Meaning, there can only be one. But I won't say which I am leaning towards, personally. June 30th, can't Wait!

Monday, June 14, 2010

HAD TO TURN DOWN A JOB

I am so bummed right now. I applied for a job as a video shop assistant last week and I got invited for an interview, but I had to turn it down because of the hours and the location. It is about 30minutes drive away and I would have to work till 23:00 at night. I wouldn't mind. It's a job, but I don't have my own car and my brother said that there is no way, I could borrow his.

I didn't mind that it wasn't a fancy job or anything, but at least I wouldn't have been another, unemployed, over ambitious writer. At least that's how my mom sees me. But I think it is OK to be a dreamer. Dreams keep you alive.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

ANOTHER MUST READ

I enjoyed this novella just as much as I had loved every one of Stephenie Meyer's other books.

Once again this book was awesome. It was written perfectly and you could actually sympathize with Bree Tanner. You didn't think of her as a bad new born vampire, who just wanted to kill Bella. You actually see her as a person and you wish,'' damn, couldn't eclipse have ended differently?''

I think it was a good book and once I started reading, I couldn't stop till I was done. If you liked all her other books, you will like this one.

I personally, love Stephenie Meyer's writing style and I think she has a way of writing characters and dialogue, that just makes you want to read her books over and over again.

A MUST READ!

This is an awesome book and I loved reading it. I recommend it to anyone who loves reading paranormal romances or who believes or wants to believe in soul mates.

Jacquelyn Frank knows just how to keep you captivated and wanting more.
Awesome!

Saturday, June 12, 2010

AM I LOVEABLE?

I don't know what it is. But I am starting to wonder if I am ever going to get the opportunity to love someone romantically. I am only 24 years old, so there is still a lot of time.

I think it is all these romantic books I'm reading and movies I'm watching. Besides, my mother is pestering me to find a boyfriend. And now I am writing a book that is a little more centred around romance and I am thinking, will anyone ever think I am love able?

I sure as hell hope so. I love being single and getting married is not really a priority, but I hope to one day have at least felt something for someone.

STUCK

I started on my second novel, which continues the story where the first one ended, but I am suddenly stuck. I can't get my story to move past the first chapter, because in this book, the romantic relationship between my main characters are suppose to evolve.

I am not naturally a romantic person and I am not very affectionate either. Therefore, when it comes to my characters, I am just as clueless. I read Jacob by Jacquelyn Frank and she is a genius when it comes to the romantic dialogue. You can feel the suspense between the characters and I just lack that.

I want my characters to be in love and I want the reader to be able to pick up their passion and need for each other. I tried writing a love scene but it just turned out being corny. I might need to read a lot of romance novels, to get the hang of this. And I know what you are thinking. Romance novels, eww! But I will have you know, writing a good romance novel, is a rare talent. Because you have to make the readers believe your characters. Any idiot can say ''Then they made love''. But a good romance novelist will explain how the process develops and they make it sound so wonderful and intoxicating, that you yourself wish you were there, in the strong, gorgeous arms of the main male character.

I just hope that I can find a solution for my two characters. I would hate for me not to finish this story.

WHEN LIFE IS GOOD, IT IS DAMN GOOD

Today has been a good day for me. I spent the whole day with my family, which because of conflicting schedules, we rarely get to do anymore. But it was awesome. We watched the rugby together and now we are topping everything off with a braai (BBQ). Nothing beats that.

They might give me a lot of crap when it comes to my personal choices, but when things are bad and I feel as if I can't go on, my family pulls me through. Thank heavens for older siblings.

Friday, June 11, 2010

RESTLESS

I have a weird feeling today. I feel almost restless but excited. It is as if I know something big is going to happen to me today. But I don't know what it means. Maybe I am just being superstitious.

Maybe it is my writing that is making me restless. I didn't sleep well last night, in fact, I didn't sleep much at all. I really want to start submitting my first manuscript, but I'm not really done with it yet. I know this is going to sound weird, but I can't wait for my first rejection letter. Because if I get a rejection letter, it means I tried to follow my dream and that I didn't just give up on it.

I feel in my gut that I am suppose to be a writer and it doesn't matter to me that my writing is mediocre right now. I know that as a writer, you only get better the longer you write and the older you get. But the thing that bothers me with that theory is that I am always a late bloomer with everything. So, I don't want to be 45 years old, when I successfully publish my first book.

All the websites I go on tells me to be patient, which is a struggle for me every single day. I tell myself ''be patient'' but my body is so excited and as I have previously stated, restless. I am such a weirdo.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

MADE A NEW FRIEND

I am so happy. I made my first friend on team pit bull today. She is such a nice lady. Maybe I am not such a weirdo after all. Yay! I know, I am so easy to please.

I didn't write at all yesterday. I had to reinstall software on my computer and do full a virus scan, which took most of my time.

I am reading ''Jacob'' by Jacquelyn Frank at the moment and it is great. She knows exactly how to entice and excite you with her vocabulary. Man, I still have a long way to go, to become nearly that good. But I am enjoying the book. Oh, but doesn't Jacob just sound absolutely gorgeous? I am glad to see that the curvy woman get represented in this book (being a curvy woman myself).

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

PANCAKES FIT FOR A WRITER

As previously discussed, I have started baking and one of my favorite things that I make is my pancakes. I am one of those really no-nonsense people and I believe that all recipe's should be that way too. So, here is my recipe for my homemade pancakes, that I make from scratch by the way.

Ingredients
250 ml Flour
30 ml Sugar
15 ml oil
10 ml baking powder
150 ml milk
1 egg
pinch of salt

Recipe
Mix all the dry ingredients together in a bowl. Mix wet ingredients together in a separate bowl. Add wet ingredients to the dry and mix well. If your batter is too stiff, add a bit more milk. If you have a mixer you can just add all the ingredients together, no problem.

Add a little oil to the pan and bake. Serve with syrup. Enjoy, just don't count the calories.

BE WARY OF OTHER WRITERS STEALING YOUR IDEAS

I recently read an interesting article on Writersdigest.com about aspiring writers who share their work on their blogs. Basically the article was about how some writers surf the Internet the whole day, checking out other writers blogs and websites and stealing their ideas.

I have always been a bit self-conscious about sharing my work, but now I definitely won't post anything.

Just think how scary that is. Anyway, she also said, that you shouldn't post your work because literary agents don't check aspiring writer's blogs. Therefore, if you want your work read, submit it to an agent or publisher by mail or email. Unless you want millions of people to read your work online.

So, be careful of what you post or where you post, because there seems to be quite a few people who lack creativity, therefore they have to steal other writers ideas. Trust me, it is not a nice feeling when someone else gets credit for something you thought up. I would know. I had a friend in high school who use to steal some of my ideas and even copy my homework and get all the credit for it, hence my paranoia.

Also be very wary of who you pitch or discuss your ideas too. You can never be too careful.

I'VE BECOME REALLY HANDY AROUND THE HOUSE

I have become really handy around the house. I am doing the washing, dishes, cooking, cleaning and even baking. It is really scary and in between all that I still manage to write.

I have become a real housewife, not that there's anything wrong with that. My moms a housewife. I just find it to be so damn hard. Tending to the house and everyone in it, is hard work. But I promised my mom I wouldn't say a word about helping out around the house, seeing that I am jobless (hopefully not for long) and much to her dismay, still single too.

My writing is going really well. The job hunting not so much. But I'm not losing hope. I know I will find something soon.

Monday, June 7, 2010

SICK AND STILL JOB HUNTING

Today I don't feel so great. I am struggling with a head cold that just does not want to go away. I have been doing plenty of writing, which I am happy about. However, one of the side effects of constantly having new ideas and feeling the ever increasing need to follow through on them, causes me to suffer from insomnia. My normal sleeping pattern is practically out the window. For some strange reason, I get most of my ideas in the night.

My job hunting isn't going well. Jobs are very scarce right now and my family is putting more pressure on me to find a new job. They seem to think that I am refusing to get a job because I am lazy and that I am stalling, just so that I could write.

I would like nothing more then to just write, but I know I need a job. I however, am not going to work in a supermarket. Because I busted my butt to get my degree and now the only jobs I can get are the ones any person, without a education can do. Making me feel even worse, because my degree means nothing, making me feel as if I busted my butt for nothing. But I am looking out for work.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

TRUE LOVE - FACT OR FICTION?

I recently wrote my first ever novel and it had a romantic theme running through it. It was nothing like my latest novel, which is a plain, out right romance novel. Writing it has made me question a few things about love or the whole concept we have of love in General.

I am no expert when it comes to the love department and I, myself, found it ridiculous that I was inspired to write a love story. Considering that I am one of the least romantic people on the planet earth.

Anyway. I just wondered if the things we read about and so many write about, is perhaps true in some way. Is it really possible for two people to fall completely and utterly in love? Caring, respecting and devoting themselves to only each other? I talked to a few people on this matter and I got mixed opinions.
  1. Most felt that it is just our hormones that get the best of us. That we as humans, are so afraid to grow old alone that we are willing to put up with anything and anyone, just so that we wouldn't have to end up alone.

  2. Another opinion was that there are just certain people who get drawn to each other. That their natural chemistry is undeniable.

  3. Then there is my favourite, the theory that some people are just meant to be together, that they are soul mates.

Scientifically, number 1 is probably correct, number 2 as well, but personally, I find it to be a bit crude and anticlimactic. I personally find number 3 more believable. No, not everyone meets their soul mate, in fact I doubt that I ever would (me being anti-social and all that). But does it possibly exist? My mother swore to me she thought my dad was her soul mate and after he died, a part of her died too. My mother's best friend and her husband are still happily married. Not to mention at least two of my aunts who are still happily married to their husbands. They tend to be those couples that when they are together, they make you feel kind of uncomfortable, just being near them.

On the other hand, you get the couples who look really happy and seem perfect, but behind closed doors, there are all kinds of turmoil. I know a few couples like that too. Now I ask you, which one is the truth? Is it possible that some couples just don't work out because they take matters into their own hands, instead of waiting for fate to intervene on their behalf? Or is the whole love concept total crap and it's just a matter of chemicals and all that other scientific mambo jumbo?

I believe true love exists, I just don't want to be like so many that was proven wrong and left angry, hurt and betrayed. The books make true love sound so amazing and possible, as if it is something that is just out there waiting for you. But is it really? How many times do you have to fail at it, to find it? Is it worth getting hurt? I don't know, but I am too much of a coward to find out.

But I know one thing. If you're a realist like me, it's not so much about what the opposite sex says to you, but it is what they are not saying. For example, I hate pick up lines and one that I have heard a lot was ''Your so beautiful'' or ''Your so cute''. Now here is my translation of that statement. The person is trying to make you feel good about yourself, probably sensing you are insecure. So they tell you the thing they think you want to hear most. Personally, I just get ticked off at that statement, because the person doesn't think your smart, funny or talented, now they are demeaning you by implying the only thing you have going for you, is your looks. So in reality they just insulted you.

So be careful of who you let near you or into your head, I think. And one other thing. At least the romance novels gives us a guideline of what we should look for. I know it is all make believe, but if you like a guy that respects you and you find the opposite, then why date him? Look or hold out for the one that does have what you are looking for. You decide what you allow people to do to you, you and you alone.

All I know is that this love thing is complicated and very few of us get it right. But it is out there. If only we had the patience for it. But like I said, I am too much of a coward to find out. For now, I am happy just giving my fictional characters their happy endings, instead of finding my own.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Thursday, June 3, 2010

EVERYONE WANTS TO BE A WRITER

I have been talking to a few friends lately and almost all of them want to be writers. Like me, many of them have been writing in secret for many years and also like me, want to pursue their passion further.

I understand my families lack of tolerance for my writing ambitions, because what makes my writing any different from the thousands of other people, who also wish to be writers? My answer? I personally believe that every writer is different, because it has been scientifically proven, no two people think alike, so applying that to writing, everyone writing is also different.

Just think about it. No writers perspective is going to be the same as an others, unless you stole their ideas. You might think of vampires as the bad guy, while someone else might think of them as the good guys. Yes, writing styles might be the same, but not the creativity or the perspective, from which the writer writes.

If I think about it now, it is actually quite easy to understand why there is so much competition in the writing world, because everyone wants to be a writer. Some just want the fame, others the money and there are the rest of us, who just want your work to be read. Sure, getting paid for it helps, but having the opportunity to write something, that to you is a work of art and having others read and appreciate it, just as much as you have is the goal or milestone.

The sad news is even though all of us want to be writers and all of us try, only a very few of us will succeed. So the how do we know which ones? The best that any writer can ever do is to make sure that your work is in the best condition (No spelling errors and stuff like that), but other then that you have to hope you have one hell of a query letter, a lot of luck and tons of perseverance.

MY WRITING IS GOING WELL

I am so proud of myself today. I started with the planning of my next novel last week but I have been feeling so driven and inspired lately that I started writing. I have already finished about 70 pages. I am one of those people who, when they write, get so drawn into the story that once I begin, it's almost impossible to stop.

I have applied for a new job (Telephone operator/ Administrator), but it's been a week and I haven't had a reply yet. My family is getting worried that I am so caught up with my writing that I am stalling on getting a job, which I am not doing.

But my true dream is to be a writer. I love the planning that goes into writing the novel and inventing the characters. It is very therapeutic for me. It just feels so liberating when you can just cut yourself off from the real world for a while and live in a made up one. You can give your characters the freedom to do what you can't and have them for fill the tasks in life you failed too. When you write you're in charge. You decide what happens and what does not and there are no limits. All you need is your imagination.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

SOME PEOPLE JUST NEED SENSITIVITY TRAINING

Don't you just hate it when your on an emotional high and someone brings you down to earth hard? I do! I hate how someone can just say one bad thing to you and it blows your emotional state right up, into tiny little pieces.
As you know I lost my dog recently and my big brother, the sadist that he is, decides to forward me this heart wrenching email about a dog at a local vet, looking for a owner.
When I read the email I already started crying and when i call to confront him about it, his answer was '' Well, I just thought you could replace the dead one with this one'' Honestly! That is one of the most insensitive things that you could do to someone who just lost their best friend.

MY FAVOURITE QUOTE

I just thought that i would share my favourite quote with you. One that I had stumbled across last year and that stuck in my head. It just so happens to be the new motto of my life. Enjoy.

''No one can make you feel inferior without your consent'' - Eleanor Roosevelt

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

WONDERFUL IDEA'S

Today I am blessed with so much inspiration that my primitive human mind can hardly keep up. I have so many ideas for possible stories, dialogues and characters. I have no clue where the sudden inspiration is coming from but I am not complaining. The only problem I do have, is making notes of them before they disappear.